Yup. truly doing this.
I really did my hair! It’s only been, oh…two weeks! The impetus extremely likely has something to do with our guests leaving. We had household staying with us for the past couple weeks, however they’ve gone now, as well as you understand exactly how it is when you’re sharing your area with other people, even people you love. It can be a delicate dance. I requirement some alone time in order to function (somewhat) normally.
So this morning I did my hair for the very first time in forever, as well as I noticed the grays starting to peek through. That’s when it hit me — I’M truly DOING THIS. right here I am, one month since the last time I colored my hair at house utilizing demi-permanent color.
विज्ञापन
Hey, gray!
I bought all of this hair coloring stuff from Sally beauty two months ago, believing that I’d ultimately grow to like coloring my own hair…
I pictured myself being able to do it on my own whenever I wished to as well as saving money.
At least that was the idea.
विज्ञापन
बिरालाहरू र मेकअप स्वेटशर्ट ??
$ 42
शप अब
In reality, I was in tears after the last time! You’re gonna believe I’m such a huge baby, however there was dye around the bathroom as well as the tub, as well as my hair turned out a bit as well dark (like shoe polish). It didn’t look rather right, as well as the very first thing El Hub stated when he saw me was, “Boy…it’s truly dark.”
That pushed me over the edge.
I was like whatever, man! I don’t want to do it once again (ever).
The grays are starting to get noticeable now. There’s about a half an inch of regrowth, as well as I can clearly see them on the top of my head as well as at the sides. The infant hairs along my hairline are likewise coming in (whee!). things will truly begin to pick up over the next month, as well as this is most likely when I’ll begin to feel more self-conscious as well as uncomfortable.
As I was curling my hair into loose waves this morning, I realized that I’m going to be standing at the mirror with my curler one of these days as well as seeing long strands of gray hair.
I question what I’ll think… will I like it?
Also, Connor’s getting to the age when she’ll begin developing her permanently memories, as well as she’s going to keep in mind me as her gray-haired mommy. I understand this is a totally natural part of life, however I don’t understand exactly how I feel about it yet. It’s just…an adjustment. I mean, there are other mommies at Connor’s institution who rock the grays, as well as they look beautiful, however I don’t understand exactly how I’m going to feel about myself yet. part of me still wants my child to keep in mind me as — as well as this is gonna noise vain — a younger person, as well as not her old mommy.
Ugh, I understand exactly how that sounds. hearing it come out of my mouth makes me feel a bit uncomfortable, however it’s true. I understand that gray hair doesn’t matter at all in the higher plan of things, however I still desired Connor to keep in mind me as her younger momma.
Did I truly state that out loud??
हो मैले गरे…
Anyway, I hope I can keep this up. हामी विचार गर्ने छौँ। In the meantime, I’m going to keep bracing myself as well as doing all of the things I requirement to do to make myself feel less like Gollum when I look in the mirror, like doing my hair, putting on some makeup as well as smiling. नि?
विज्ञापन
Keep on keepin’ on.
तपाईंको मैत्री समुदाय सौन्दर्य दुर्व्यसनी,
करेन
